Overly Hopeful

Excited? That is not the word... because nothing is happening, nothing has been immediately promised. I wish excited was the word. More like depressingly disappointed. You have always been taught that college is the way to go, now you can't go. You have been promised, and nothing happens. People want but don't do or act. You talk about one day, but where is it going? When is this "OneDay" this "SomeDay"?

SomeDay, will not be OneDay. Today, is my tomorrow, I will reach new highs. I WILL have my life, my shining star, and my light will shine bright and overflow and touch others. I can't Let the world keep me down. It's not an easy task being the strong one, for everyone. I need to be the strong one for MYSELF and my FUTURE wife, kids, and most importantly my future self.

When feeling weak, I can't give up. I will be weakened by my Lust, then destroyed by my Envy. I can't cope, I must be strong, and keep it all out of me. These demons haunt me. The skeletons can not be kept hidden. Out in the open, acknowledged by self, knowing it is there, will allow you to stop before a mistake is made, before you fuck up one too many times.

SomeDay I will have the life I dream about. For that "SomeDay" to happen, I no longer need to dream it, but LIVE IT! Today is filled with emotion. Only God can help me. I will never be alone with him, no matter how low I have sunk,no matter how empty I feel, no matter what wrong I have committed. God is the one person who I have always needed, and has always been so close. Today... I pray that I can just keep myself happy in life...