Monday, May 17, 2010

All I want...

All I want is someone to love me.
All I want is to live a life I can be proud of.
All I want is to be helpful and friendly.
All I want is a family of my own...

All I have been told is college is the only way to get money, to provide for myself, family, and live a life.
All I have been told is that money doesn't grow on trees and hard work is all that maters.
All I have been told is that I won't measure up to anything.
All I have been told is that I hurt people, destroy everything, and that people would b better off without me.

I have been told that I need to go to college, so why is nothing happening now?
I have been told to stop, again, and again, and again, so why is it so hard to stop?
I have been told that I am the driving force for my life, so what do i do?
I have been told, that "I will always be here for you".... so where are you now?

All I really want RIGHT NOW is for me to be able to unfold and write my life story.
All I really want RIGHT NOW is for my life to be stable.
All I really want RIGHT NOW is for my emotional self to be heightened and trusting.
All I really want right now... is for the demons, skeletons, and regrets to be washed away, for I have a lot to do.... and do not need them by my side.

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