What's up

When? Now: College, family, money, the stress of it all and more, and the need of healing... the need of God. I have God, I need to keep him closest to my heart, for he is the most treasured thing I have. I'm more than I think or give myself credit for. There is more to everyone. YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH!!! Don't stop getting back up, for if you stop getting back up, you will never be able to get to where you want to go, or do what you want to do. Never stop picking yourself back up, if you can't, God will help you.

What? There is no way you are going to stop me with God on my side. It's not a game, it's life and real people. True feelings and true mind sets. Is it that sometimes the best help is to walk away and let God do the teaching in their life? I do not know the answer to that. All I know is that I can't keep living this way, I'm breaking out of this cage and facing my demons, getting clean, a brand new me, white and pure as fresh snow. I look past the clouds moon and stars and pray to God, what do I do? I'm never going to stop, but rather always try my best for what I believe is right.

How? I take in all I learn from not JUST a book or school or even what I have been told to be fact. I look at life and see what has happened and ask what lead to this, where did it start. I look at what I do not want and ask how do I need to act to get the opposite. I pray to God, I ask him for strength and wisdom. It has been given to me since birth, but now I know I am nothing compared to him, there are bigger things out there than just me. People and forces with power, who have influence on what I need. God will help me... God will provide me with that I really need. So I keep my head high, and watch myself, for actions speak louder than any motivational speech.

Who? Me. My life. My God. My prayer. My future is my family, my happiness, my wife, and my home. My home, my thrown, open to all to help in need. My good deeds to help others and set a new example of what normal is suppose to be. I will be not the ENVY of the people, but the CHERISHED and LOVED, one whom they can TURN TO and TRUST. Some say I'm this, some say I'm that... I'm Christopher Holcombe thank you very much.
I will succeed not because a love for money or power or to appear better, but because I want to provide, support, and love my family and my God.

Why? Why not..? Why NOT be successful and why not be loved... why not feel good, healthy, or happy... why stay sad, jealous, depressed, or just plain bad ... why would you ever want that? Why not have love in your life. Why not? If you could have love, wouldn't you want it? Wouldn't you want to travel to the end of the world to get it? Why lie? your greater satisfaction will come faster with truth. Why sin?..

You ask why? Because I can't do it on my own, I need help... more importantly... because I have sinned... I hate many things I have done. God will protect me from further damage. The flesh heals itself. The heart... does not. That's why. That's why.